I realise that I have gotta live with my mistakes.
But... isn't it such a heavy price to pay for something that I've decided on a whim?
Well, let this be a lesson to myself. To think through things, especially important decisions throughly in the future - weighing all the pros and cons.
Now? I just gotta work with what I have now. I know I can do it. I can survive.
And wait patiently for the day that I can make a new decision. To live life the way I want it to be.