Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Dear Diary

A walk down memory lane..

It amazes me how much I have grown over the past few years. The book above is a testament to that fact.

My sister passed me this book this afternoon and when I saw it, I remembered. This was the book I wrote my deepest secret thoughts in when I was still an immature young high school girl.

My diary.

I was intrigued and started reading.

It was like a walk into the past, a past I had long buried deep in the recesses of my head. 8 years ago. A form 2 high school girl, naive - thinking the world was her oyster as long as she worked hard.

It might still be my oyster now, but I realised that to survive in this dog-eat-dog world out there, it's not easy at all. And one needs more than pure hard work.

Dear diary...

In those lines of neatly written words - laid secrets of archenemies, foolish ideas, unalduterated gossip, childlish thoughts and hope. The naivety was refreshing yet frightening. How could I have thought of such things last time?

I was rash, impatient, impulsive and full of myself, even. How strange that a few years could change how I thought of myself. Maybe this is called growing up?

Reading the book brought back many memories and feelings. Friendships that were formed. Then sadly broken. I wonder how are they now?

It was definitely interesting reading a part of me left in the past. Probably I will feel the same way 8 years from now, reading back my old blog entries. Always an immature girl in the eyes of the future me. haha.

Anyhow, hope I will continue to grow. To be a better person in a better future. :)


Titus said...

I have mine from standard six till Pre-U ! lol

Zzzyun said...

wah so geng...!! did u write in it almost everyday?

i dropped it after a few months of daily entries. then only wrote sporadically after tat.

so how did u feel reading it back?

Titus said...

I wrote it almost every single day for 6 and a half years. Its scary the amount of detailed events and thoughts I have in there. Sometimes up to 600, 700 words for a single day!
Haven't read them in quite a while. Quite a bundle of mixed emotions when I do read back, haha

Zzzyun said...

haha yaloh.. wah not bad ah, u are quite disciplined.

must be a trove of events and memories in urs. i was wondering shld i destroy mine? so that nobody else can read it... as u can see, my bro n sis has already snooped it lol

samantha said...

aww, u shud keep it. but somewhere 'secret'? LOL, maybe take it back with u to perth.

Zzzyun said...

haha i will think abt it. not sure whether i really need to bring something im not going to use much back to perth. hm..