I do not want to get involved in this sticky affair.. It's none of my business, really.
Yet my heart asks me to help another poor soul. But good advice is always bitter, isn't it? Never easy to listen to.
And I can't bring myself to cause your whole world to come crashing down upon you. I can't be too harsh, too direct. I can only hint around the subject and give my views.
However it's only yourself that can wake yourself up from the nightmarish world that you have imprison yourself in. A world built on your own fantasy and ideals.
I wish you good luck.