Friday, October 24, 2008

It Will

Suddenly have the urge to write something here... but nothing much of interest to say actually.

Oklo, talk abt my study progress (as if that is very interesting like that -_-)

Glad to report that I should be able to finish the Diabetes chapter tomorrow! omg finally! I was really getting bored of it. 40+ pages is too much for 1 disease! Multiple non-specific clinical features, complex treatment, overwhelming complications... o.O

I wonder if even a slicker of what I'd read the past few weeks registered in my slippery brain. =(

*shrugs*

Maybe it will pop up to say hi someday when I need it. hopefully.

Will be heading out to seremban on the coming sunday. I will continue my studying lists while I'm there as the rest will probably be busy with uni stuff most of the time. (I can't play sims all day, can I?) Anyway, a change of environment would do me a world of good. Okay, it's not really the environment, it's the people. yeah. miss all of them lots! =)

After finishing the lists, which will probably take some time, then I might start on Hypertension as it is also another important chronic disease. I hope it's shorter than diabetes.

You know, the more I read, the more I realise how little knowledge I have. Welcome to the world of Medicine. where trying to amass knowledge is an uphill task filled with potholes and cliffs.

Sometimes, I wonder.. would what I learn in the next 3 years be actually sufficient for me to make an accurate diagnosis plus give the appropriate treatment to the patient? He who trusts me, this person he calls doctor.

Maybe they have some secret way in clinicals that are able to polish us little medical students into the good brilliant doctors of tomorrow. I hope so, coz I'm counting on it.

Yes I know, a lot of it will depends on my own initiative. I also hope that I'll have the perseverance to see it through. To keep on remembering why I chose this line of work in the first place.

I tell myself. It will all be worth it in the end - the hard work, the sweat, the tears, the time spent - when you see your patient smile at you and thank you, in a much better state than when you first saw him.

Yes. it will.

5 comments:

MichelleG said...

er... well i think my knowledge is not that good too. i guess clinicals just makes us do stuff and see stuff to hopefully make us remember better.. and all those weird and rare disease definitely will be forgotten.. sigh..

Titus Tang said...

Graduating and actually being a professional (every profession, not just doctors for that matter) are two very different things.

Don't expect or demand from yourself to be a "full" doctor the moment you graduate. It takes time and experience.

Zzzyun said...

michelleg> oh.. well i guess the saying 'practice makes perfect' works here! haha.. and hopefully what i see during clinicals wil spur me to study more. but can retain onot i dunno de.. :P

titus> hmm wise words indeed. i didnt think of tat. but there is no room for error, dont u think so? regardless of whether u have just graduated or a very experienced consultant.

becoz it's people's lives that we are entrusted with.

lynnx01 said...

Amazing to see that at least you get down to do some reading during this extended break.

Zzzyun said...

actually i chilled a lot during the beginning of hols. but after a while, it gets really boring and one really needs to do smtg to keep oneself sane. (i mentioned in 1 of my posts long ago la)

so i just set tiny goals everyday and hope to achieve them plus hopefully acquire some knowledge along the way. u'll understand when ur long hols come after sem 5! :)