Suddenly have the urge to write something here... but nothing much of interest to say actually.
Oklo, talk abt my study progress (as if that is very interesting like that -_-)
Glad to report that I should be able to finish the Diabetes chapter tomorrow! omg finally! I was really getting bored of it. 40+ pages is too much for 1 disease! Multiple non-specific clinical features, complex treatment, overwhelming complications... o.O
I wonder if even a slicker of what I'd read the past few weeks registered in my slippery brain. =(
Maybe it will pop up to say hi someday when I need it. hopefully.
Will be heading out to seremban on the coming sunday. I will continue my studying lists while I'm there as the rest will probably be busy with uni stuff most of the time. (I can't play sims all day, can I?) Anyway, a change of environment would do me a world of good. Okay, it's not really the environment, it's the people. yeah. miss all of them lots! =)
After finishing the lists, which will probably take some time, then I might start on Hypertension as it is also another important chronic disease. I hope it's shorter than diabetes.
You know, the more I read, the more I realise how little knowledge I have. Welcome to the world of Medicine. where trying to amass knowledge is an uphill task filled with potholes and cliffs.
Sometimes, I wonder.. would what I learn in the next 3 years be actually sufficient for me to make an accurate diagnosis plus give the appropriate treatment to the patient? He who trusts me, this person he calls doctor.
Maybe they have some secret way in clinicals that are able to polish us little medical students into the good brilliant doctors of tomorrow. I hope so, coz I'm counting on it.
Yes I know, a lot of it will depends on my own initiative. I also hope that I'll have the perseverance to see it through. To keep on remembering why I chose this line of work in the first place.
I tell myself. It will all be worth it in the end - the hard work, the sweat, the tears, the time spent - when you see your patient smile at you and thank you, in a much better state than when you first saw him.
Yes. it will.