Of Masquerades And Candles

Stained Glass Masquerade

by Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails

Is there anyone that falls

Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around

Everybody seems so strong

I know they'll soon discover

That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay

If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too

So with a painted grin, I play the part again

So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people

Under shiny plastic steeples

With walls around our weakness

And smiles to hide our pain

But if the invitation's open

To every heart that has been broken

Maybe then we close the curtain

On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there

Are there any hands to raise

Am I the only one who's traded

In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing

And we know every line by heart

Only when no one is watching

Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free

If I dared to let you see

The truth behind the person

That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open

Or would you walk away

Would the love of Jesus

Be enough to make you stay

I first saw the lyrics of this song in Crz's blog and the lyrics somehow struck me... and poignant as it was, it remained in my mind till now. I haven't heard the song yet (download taking a looong time) but no matter, the lyrics somehow ring true.

[don't worry I am still a free-thinker, just appreciate the lyrics okay]

Don't you notice how we act differently towards different people?

To some, we are more carefree and light-hearted. To others, we are more serious and we close our hearts to them by giving a blank unreadable face. In this world of deceit and treachery, it is safer to hide ourselves beneath a facade of apparent happiness, isn't it?

We act the role people assume us to be so well sometimes that we even trick ourselves that that is who we are.

Sometimes just sometimes, we are a tiny bit uncautious, we let a glimpse of the real us peek out. And instantly, it is frowned upon by others. I ask you, what's a girl gotta do?

Suddenly, I'm enlightened to the advantages of being a deaf and mute recluse. Dealing with people and making everyone satisfied is the hardest thing one can do and still remain true to oneself.

Anyhow, all this musing reminds me of a poem we read once in secondary school. Somehow I am able to appreciate it more now.

Out, Out Brief Candle

by William Shakespeare

She should have died hereafter;

There would have been a time for such a word.

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day

To the last syllable of recorded time;

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage

And then is heard no more.

It is a tale

Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,

Signifying nothing.

Aren't we all idiots sometimes?

Typically Asian

Yeap, the next exploration in the culinary world is a typical meal you will see everywhere in Asia. We Asians like to have it when we are sick... as it's easier on your GI tract.

Feast your eyes (yes a pun!) on...

The more fluid version of rice

This meal is not too hard but it took the bf and moi quite a long time to cook this up so to speak... coz we cudn't estimate how long it took to boil the chicken.

Anyway, when we finally managed to boil the chicken drumsticks [I didn't know that chicken had so much oil essence in it! it looked like oily chicken soup!], then we waited for it to cool before shredding it. After that, it was only a matter of adding the shreds of chicken meat into the porridge just before it's done.

We also boiled some salted eggs (coz I like it with my porridge!) and a steamed egg dish. but no photos of that sorry coz it's unphotogenic... *muahaha*

Well I'll only post photos of that when we have mastered the dish... it's normal to have mishaps now and then. :P Can't expect for us amateur cooks to be successful all the time, right? keke.

Anyway, we added the last of the nuts I brought with me from penang and some pepper - and voila! - we have a nice steaming meal of porridge!

*licks lips* yay tasty.

My Expression Of Self

Were you too harsh?

I do not know.

I do not want to be an arrogant person and assume I'm right all the time. (which logically I am not)

Maybe I do have a problem when it comes to expressing myself. Maybe I am too sensitive for my own freaking good. Maybe I'm too pushy.

Arrgh shucks I hate this.

Let me put this behind me. *don't even dwell back on it, girl*

yeah right. I wish.

You Are The "Kee" To Our Hearts

That was what that was written on the birthday cake. Isn't it sweet? ^v^

yeap you guessed right! One of the last outings b4 the Raya break was to celebrate Kee's 21st birthday slightly early becoz his real one is sadly, during the Hari Raya break where everyone would be going home. Well I'm sad that I can't share the joy on the real day itself but an earlier celebration is the best alternative!

If you remember - I mentioned in this previous post that my friends were so funny to decide to surprise me in the carpark lobby near the lifts, I decided to give my dear dear the surprise of his life. (I alwix think that 21st birthdays shld be celebrated grandly *hint hint hehe*)

Therefore, mischievious moi decided to ask all his friends to hide in his bedroom with the cake and surprise him when he opens the door!! He would never discover it beforehand! keke. And there would be no anti-climax surprises that occured with mine. My friends accidentally surprised a malay couple that was walking silently in front of me LOL. I must admit I was surprised too, but then the effect of a bunch of ppl jumping right in your face and several metres in front of you is different. haha.

Oops digressed.

Anyway, the plan worked perfectly. I must admit, I was in a fluster, hurrying the rest of the people to the house after class while me and Tzen would work our Art of Delaying on Kee. haha. I must say, my plan of getting slides, returning and borrowing a book worked perfectly. So much so that they were sweating profusely in his room haha coz they can't on the fan when the candles are alight. poor things.

So I messaged them, warning of our eminent arrival so that they could prepare. I was so prepared that I even gave Leong the lighter a night before. Which turned out to be a blunder when Leong put it on the sofa, which naturally lead to a question of why is it there by Kee. Thankfully, that week he was kinda blur so he didn't ask more. :P

But all the preparation in the world couldn't prepare me for the last challenge. For once, he didn't go into his room but remained in the living room. I was for once at a loss of ideas to bluff him to go into his room. Luckily Tzen came up with the idea of borrowing his book. Kee was at first reluctant to bring the book out now (and it is weird to demand a book there and then saying he need it NOW especially when he was playing ps2 summore lol) but thk god Kee gave in and went to get the book in the end.

And so the surprise went as planned! ^v^ I was so happy that it turned out perfectly. There are so many factors that come into play when it comes to surprising ppl eh.. gotta work more on that.

Here's a photo of what Li Yann, Sue Wen and Pui Fun gave him during the party...

Kawaii, ain't it?

And lucky me, I get the girly half of the keychain even tho it isn't my birthday! hehehe...

Ohh.. you didn't think the celebrations ended just there, did you? Anyway, we went to Midvalley to have a nice dinner and watch a movie lo. After much discussion, we somehow ended up at Oh Sushi for dinner.

I think the decor there is absolutely fabulous! See see!

Unfortunately, I can't say much of the food. Compared to other japanese sushi restaurants, this one was hontoni expensive! And the bento sets weren't much to boast abt either. Only the California Roll plus other small sushi taste not bad. oh well, guess I still like Sakae Sushi the best. yummy bento sets there!

Anyway, we talked crap so much that we were almost late for the movie. We wanted to watch Resident Evil at first - and yes this time we did book tickets - however not all of the crowd wanted to watch it so in the end, we switched to The Bourne Ultimatum.

this particular poster is cool but it's not the one shown in Msia I think.

You know what, this movie is a must watch! Very cool and intelligent sort of movie. And full of action too! It's amazing to watch how Bourne keeps pulling the stops on the evil police organization that's gone on a killing spree. Justice prevails! Btw, I think he's more real that James Bond and all that suave crap. so put this movie in your choice of must-watchs okay! hehe.

Well my post can't finish without showcasing the rest of the prezzies he got.

This gift is by his college friends.

Woo! Hugo brand Cologne leh! don't play play.. hehe

Next gift is by Zherlin, Keeping, Tzen and LiShan.

yes a white tie! ooo... shiny.

Well, you didn't think that I myself would be so blur to forget a prezzie for my dear dear, right? :P

Okla, last but not least, the next one up is my gift...

yeah after much thought and lots time spent of gift-hunting (thks to tzen & meow for helping me with the trip!), I decided to get him a vest!

He will be able to match it with his formal shirts! keke. hope he likes it! =)

Well, that was how we celebrated Kee's birthday lo..

Nothing exactly extravagant but pretty memorable too. I hope he enjoys it as much we did. ^v^

The Art of Art

Boo! I'm back!

Gomen for the slight-unplanned-hiatus. Been kinda busy and the post that is in progress is in need of a few photos that I'm still waiting for.

Anyway, here's a distraction. A post to showcase the drawings done by my bf for my uni's art competition (last year and this year).

Behold:-

Reflection

A mother reflecting back on the birth of her firstborn.

I think it's very touching oh! hehe. Anyway, he got first place last year for this drawing.. I think it has a lot to do abt how meaningful the drawing was.. =)

And this is this year's art piece:

Medicine: His-Story

Given the title of History of Medicine (thus leading to the art piece's aptly-title, don't you think so? it was my idea hehe), this art piece showcases the different facets of medicine. Various cultures are depicted here - Egyptian, Greek, Chinese and modern medicine.

This art competition is an international one so the prizes are pretty tempting! rm2500 for first prize leh! o.O and rm500 for consolation!

Anyway, I think this drawing is pretty detailed and the content fits the title given. I saw the other participants' pieces yesterday and I must say, I'm impressed. The art pieces submitted were really good! although some kinda don't really fit the title though. Creative license eh?

Oh.. I think I've runned out of things to ramble about. Did I manage to distract you? hehe..

Well I wish I could draw like that... *sigh* Nevermind, at least I think I'm good when it comes to words and ideas! *hint hint* keke...

Homegrown

My frens would probably remember me saying how much I miss my mum's cooking and how I wish I was as half as a good cook as she is.

Well, here are some of her dishes in full glory. ooo so yummy!

(paiseh my camera phone isn't capable of doing justice to the food that she cooks -_- hope that my photoshop skills can help a bit...)

First up is...

Can't believe it leh, that my mum also know how to make Loh Bak. :P She really has talent as a cook, most of the new food she tries to make will turn out successful eh! geng.

Anyway, this Loh Bak can rival those served by Little Penang Cafe. At least you know for sure that my mum uses real ingredients! hehe.

Second dish up is...

This dish is really good! The fish used is sting ray actually if you didn't know what sort of fish they used in your curry. One doesn't get to eat sting ray too often outside as it's expensive. hehe.

Anyway, I lurve the sourness given out by the tomatoes mixed with the spiciness of the dish keke. oh ya I really like tomatoes in my food, if cooked correctly of coz.

Next up is...

yes my mum knows how to make Bak Kut Teh too! hehe. Of coz the best I've ever tasted was a famous shop in KL [my uncle brought me there and sorry I think I haven't tasted the so-called best in Klang yet] but then the Bak Kut Teh my mum makes is pretty good too...

And you guys normally know that dishes with that chinesy herbal smell really gross me out. o.O Somehow I do enjoy eating Bak Kut Teh tho. hehe.

Last but not least is...

Yes Lam Mee the penang way!! How I miss this when I was in KL, they just don't have this tasty noodle in their hawker stalls.

This soup is cooked with pork and lots of prawn, giving it a sweet taste. Then the eggs are fried in a way so that they are in very thin sheets, giving a new sort of texture. Add the egg and noodle in the soup and voila, you have a delicacy!

This is my absolute favourite out of the four dishes above - and mind you, I am just simply picking four dishes that I have photos off - my mum's range of delicious dishes is so much more than that...

oh my these photos of food are getting my tummy in a rumble... huhu.

Alright, ciao for now!

PS: I'm going back to KL tomorrow morning - yes hols are coming to an end *boohoo* and weirdly, for once I don't feel exactly exhilarated by that. Hmm.. weird. oh well, whatever.

Love Of A Dad

Hey, this is a very touching poem by a saddened dad that I got in my email today. Just thought that I'd like to share the beauty of it with you guys.

To My Child:

Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face

and laugh when I feel like crying.

Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear,

and smile and say how perfect it is.

Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry

and pick you up and take you to the park to play.

Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink,

and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.

Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off,

and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.

Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble

when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck,

and I will buy you one if he comes by.

Just for this afternoon, I won't worry

about what you are going to be when you grow up,

or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.

Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies,

and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.

Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's

and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.

Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story

about how you were born and how much I love you.

Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.

Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late

while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.

Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours,

and miss my favourite TV shows.

Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray,

I will simply be grateful

that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.

I will think about the mothers and fathers

who are searching for their missing children,

the mothers and fathers

who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms.

The mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms

watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming inside that little body

And when I kiss you goodnight,

I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer.

It is then, that I will thank God for you,

and ask him for nothing,

except one more day...

Long Time No Tag

Got this tag from Pui Fun's blog. Try it out if you're bored to death like me, haha..

The rules laid out are:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on Shuffle mode.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Write any comments you have after the song name.
5. Tag everyone who’s linked to your blog (those reading this entry included too!) and get them to tell you when they’ve done theirs, so you can both laugh at each other’s “misfortunes” or “coincidences”! =D

If someone says "is this okay?" you say?
不要以为自己没有用 = don't think that you are useless (from the movie I Not Stupid)
Wah, is that an encouragement or a sarcastic remark? lol.

How would you describe yourself?
A Song For My Daughter (unknown artist)
Right... for a daughter that I don't have haha >.<

What do you like in a guy/girl?
From The Inside (Linkin Park)
Wow this really suits the question. I like a guy more for his personality more than his looks.

How do you feel today?
海阔天空 = free and magnimous [figurative translation] (Beyond)
Erm... Free yeah, magnimous I dunno wo.

What is your life's purpose?
Heaven (Bryan Adams)
Huh? Serious meh? I hope not. I believe in living life to the fullest!

What is your motto?
我们的故事 = Our Story (Tension)
uh ok. I'll interpret that as making the best of my life so that there are good memories/stories to tell!

What do your friends think of you?
Song With No Name (BoA)
Ooo shld I put a figurative spin on that? Means I'm someone that is not easy to get close to? Becoz I'm someone that has no identity? what crap am I spouting lah.. -_-

What do you think of your parents?
You're My Destiny (Jim Brickman & Martina McBride)
Wow, I guess it's destiny that made us meet to become a family. =)

What do you think about very often?
Thank You (Dido)
*ironic tone* Huh? I didn't know I was a person that was able to appreciate all the joys of life.

What do you think of your best friend?
La Tortura (Shakira)
*winces* that sounds painful whatever it means haha.

What do you think of the person you like?
Spray Paint (Fort Minor)
Wow, most of my answers are not making sense! I don't think he is like spray paint btw. That's just too showy and rebellious lol.

What is your life story?
情非得以 = clashing of passions and ideals (Harlem Yu)
Hmm not exactly my life story per se but I think I can safely say that it happens sometimes. =P

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Beautiful Soul (Jesse McCartney)
oooh! the person I like shld be one! ^v^

What will they play at your funeral?
Sexy Back (Justin Timberlake)
*rofl*I hope not... -_- that would totally ruin the sombre atmosphere ppl are supposed to feel at my funeral. sucha big loss haha

What is your hobby/interest?
Can't Take My Eyes Off You (Frankie Vallie)
Oh really? I didn't know that I made eyeing people into a hobby haha.

What is your biggest fear?
Highway Blues (Marc Seales)
well I do think I'm scared of MVA (motor vehicle accident) on the highway.

What is your biggest secret?
Mr.Q (Jolin Tsai)
What?! Oh wait you found out abt my secret lover called Mr.Q *hahacoughlol* yeah I know, not funny.

What do you think of your friends?
Everything (M2M)
Oh not bad. yeah they are my everything after my other loved ones. =) They rawr!

Cooking A Mamak Staple

Ahoy there! This is another culinary adventure with the bf.. haha! Guess what we try to make this time?

*hints available in post's title hehe*

Tada~!!

doesn't it look yummy-licious? =P

Yeap, we made Maggi goreng! We weren't very free that day so we decided on something that was simple yet delicious!

You don't believe it's rather simple? Then let me tell you how it's done then.

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First, boil the noodles till they are cooked. Sieved out the water and leave it in a plate. Cut the tomatoes and pluck the cabbage into tiny pieces. If possible, try to get the green vege (I dunno what is its name and I forgot to buy that day) as it tastes not bad with the noodles. Oh ya, don't forget to cut the sausages into small slices too.

Right, then you are ready to do frying! Heat up the pan and put in moderate amounts of cooking oil. Put in the noodles first and add the seasonning that comes with it. [Believe me, it tastes very nice in fried noodles too!] Add some soya sauce/pepper if the taste is not enough.

Then add in the sausage slices and the cabbage. When the noodles are almost done, add in the tomato slices last for a few quick fries. Then you are done!

Isn't it easy? try it out sometime! =)

.: Outings :.

Repro has just started for two weeks and guess what? It's not as interesting as I thought it would be, despite the squirms and giggles that would abound when certain disorders/diseases of the male/female repro are discussed in the lecture hall.

Anyway, we have been going out relatively a lot recently. Movie outings, eating outings, karaoke outings, shopping outings - you name it, we have it. haha.

The last karaoke outing was on the friday afternoon after endocrine exam in Greenbox, with the extra aim of celebrating ZherLin's birthday.

We also went to this cool place two tuesdays back called Restaurant Telipon which is a buffet-steamboat-cum-grill restaurant!! *licks lips* This was to co-celebrate ChengLing and Eugene's birthday! Wow, so many september and october babies! hehe.

No need to say lah, we really had our fill that night. I especially lurve the grilled food! yummy!! Actually, I prefer grill buffet than steamboat lo... teehee >.<

I didn't know that grilled bak gua (forgot what's called in english) can be so tasty! love it. And the normal grilled food would be sausages, ham and what not. haha.

Btw, look what Kee did besides the usual grilling and eating. :P

Stacking mushrooms on top of each other! it looks pretty cute tho! hehe

And I became a light bulb when I went shopping with Li Shan and Tzen in Midvalley two sundays back. haha. As long as they don't mind it's okay lo. keke. yay got raya sale, but some of the clothes were just still too expensive for us. lol. Luckily I managed to find the gift that I wanted (altho it was abit expensive!) so yeah, all is good. hehe.

And we ended the tiring shopping day with a movie - I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry. We're joined by Kee who was kind enough to fetch us home later.

Anyway I must say, this movie is entirely hilarious!! A must watch. It's rated 18-above and I can see why. lol.

funny shyt.

Sadly some of the scenes were censored teehee >.< but on the overall, this movie really tickled my funny bone. And as usual, it touched on issues on friendship, homosexuality, being true to yourself etc. Go watch it if you haven't watch it yet! keke...

Then last last friday, I was feeling rather sien and definitely not in the mood for study so off we went to watch some movie. The bf was aiming for Resident Evil: Extinction but unfortunately both 2 time slots were packed. oh well, next time I guess.

In the end, we settled for The Seeker: The Dark Is Rising. I would say it was so-so only lah, but not exactly spectacular.

Trying to cash in on the Harry Potter success?

The part where the security guards started changing into monsters was the most thrilling part of the whole movie coz we didn't know whether it was happening for real or was it the boy's hallucination (typically so in a House episode haha). Unfortunately the part was at the near front, and it took a gradual nosedive from there on. The worst was the ending which was kinda lame and anti-climax. oh well.. good movies are hard to come by nowadays.

Anyway, I seemed to be addicted to shopping recently so I persuaded my dear dear to go with me to SgWang last weekend. And after a few hours of browsing and looking for the right thing, I finally bought a peach-coloured top that is the longish type and an eyeshadow applier. Oops I seem to be abit addicted to the newly-learnt art of makeup too. haha.

Anyway dinner was at one of our favourite restaurants - Kim Gary.

And this is what I had.

I chose the set as it was more worth-it. And I really love it! So yummy. Kim Gary's cheese-baked rice is still the best altho I'd tried quite a few of those HK fusion food restaurants.

And he had this.

Yesh, I know it was dinner time but then it was still available so why not? It tasted not bad too..

Wow, looking at pictures of food is making me tummy grumble haha. And yeah I'm finally back in Penang for the raya hols! One week! call me out peeps! And before I forget, Happy Hari Raya to my muslim friends and readers out there! =)

Anyway, this update is kinda late so there would definitely be another post on the latest outing hehe. yesh it was for the early celebration of a certain someone's birthday. Watch this space!

You Know You're In Med Sch When...

1. You have ever said "Netter is god" - nah I didn't say that, but gotta admit it's a good book.
2. You can discuss autopsy/ anatomy over a meal - sure why not!
3. You own a 4 color pen - nope, but I have 5 different coloured highlighters, does that count?
4. It just isn't enough colors for you - err okla enough ade..
5. You use more than one color to take notes - well sometimes, but mostly use the same pen coz where got time to change pen when the lecturer's mumbling at the speed of light?
6. You have use up more than 6 highlighters in the past 6 months - okay not so geng yet..
7. You have even highlighted something YOU wrote - guilty as charged!
8. You retype handouts given in class - haha I where got patience to do that.
9. You haven't had a date in 3 months - thankfully I can answer negative for this one.
10. You haven't had a date since entering med school - and negative for this too!
11. You have not been able to remember the normal term for something because you were thinking of the medical term (ie reflux for heartburn) - *gasp* it happened before!
12. You get more sleep in lecture than at home - luckily no.. coz lectures are like only 2 hours a day..
13. You know the correct spelling for pruritus - isn't that the correct spelling??
14. You also know what it means - of coz, or how can I claim to be a medical student?
15. You have ever asked a question in class - in lecture nope but csu/pbl yeah..
16. The prof. didn't understand the question - sometimes they very blur wan
17. You didn't believe the answer the prof. gave - well it's a fact that they are known to be wrong on rare occasions too, but mostly okla
18. You went to look it up to see if they were right - of coz I would check if I feel the answer given is wrong lah
19. You can't hold a conversation on anything other than medschool - hey I where got so lousy lah..
20. You skip class to study - hah I wish I would skip class to even go out to play -_-
21. You've said you didn't do well on a test on which you beat the mean - nono I'm pretty honest
22. You spend more than 15 hrs a week on e-mail - nah if I write it's most probably for this blog
23. You have a callous on your finger from writing - well I do have a tiny indentation on one of my fingers that appears when I write too much
24. More than one professor knows you by name - heh I wish
25. When you ask a question, a new professor has said "Oh, I've heard of you" - ditto
26. You can name more amino acids than past presidents - pretty possible
27. You use more than 5 acronyms an hour when talking - depends but it's possible
28. You actually know what PERRLA stands for - erm paiseh this I dunno
29. You know all the steps of the TCA cycle - well I used to but kinda forgotten ade
30. You do not read PTA as parent teachers association - no I don't but what does it stand for in medical jargon ah? I kinda forgotten...
31. You can remember the muscles in the forearm - erm not really.. shyt
32. You know the structures in the urea cycle - urea cycle got "structures" wan meh?
33. You know the dermatome distribution - sedikit sedikit lah maaf coz I haven't done CNS
34. You can't remember what you had for breakfast - luckily not so bad yet my short-term memory loss :P
35. You can't spell world, much less backwards - huh?
36. You've ever been sexually aroused by the breast shadow on an X-ray - siao meh..
37. You equate "morning stiffness" with Rhematoid Arthritis - abothen?
38. You actually know normal values for plasma Na - used to but kinda forgot...
39. and for K - ditto
40. Missing class causes you extreme stress - well maybe not extreme stress but I don't like it
41. You have seriously asked someone "So how does that make you feel?" - guilty as charged
42. You have asked will this be on the exam - of coz!
43. Just after the prof. said it wouldn't - okay not after that
44. You identify with Deb on E.R. - erm I don't watch ER
45. You have made a medical joke - haha *coughyeahcough*
46. no one laughed - err depends
47. You figure they just weren't that far in their studying - no lah
48. You wear your stethescope around your neck on the bus - no we're not allowed to do that
49. You don't even know which way the thing goes in your ears - hey of coz I know lah
50. "SOB" means shortness of breath to you - *coughyescough*
51. You have gone to student health with suspicion of a disease you have studied - medical student syndrome eh...
52. within 3 days of the lecture - no lah
53. You have answered a question in class - nope
54. asked by the professor - no way!
55. it was a rhetorical question - NO!!
56. You can quote lines from the movie "Malice" - what movie is that?
57. You believe them - erm I can't give you a definite answer, refer to previous answer
58. You can flip your pen over your thumb - not so skilled, halfway there
59. with both hands - ditto
60. You do so throughout class - ditto
61. You have corrected a professor in class - i wish *dripping with sarcasm*
62. The rest of the class didn't understand the lecture to begin with - that would probably include me too..
63. You know how to calculate specificity - think so
64. positive predictive value - yeap
65. anion gap - *tiny voice* err no?
66. You can't balance your checkbook - it's not my fault that I can't balance something I don't have
67. You don't know what the weather was like for the past week - err I guess so
68. You don't know what the weather is like right now - yes yes I'm guilty, happy?
69. You actually talk in open ended questions - that's what we are taught whut
70. DIC isn't a slang term for the penis in your book - it stands for Disseminated Intravascular Coagulation right right?
71. You think B- is a bad grade - of coz, it's a FAIL in med school!
72. You have stressed about a pass/fail class - shldn't it be that way?
73. You study during most of your meals - nooo freaking way!
74. You saw nothing abnormal about the Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder - it's pretty abnormal and I see it in some ppl
75. You draw all of the slides not already provided in the handouts - the important ones yes
76. including the cartoons (humourous type) - no lah siao
77. Anatomy makes you hungry - okay I'm not so psycho yet
78. You would even consider saying "Ease back on my finger at your own pace" - why not?
79. You know the size of a RBC - used to, forgot already oops!
80. You don't know the size of a football field - not interested
81. Your eyesight has worsened by 10 pts or more in the last year - thankfully I still don't need specs unlike many of my counterparts
82. You have the library hours memorized - well after almost 2 years, I think it's reasonable to remember it right?
83. You have your own seat in the library - not really, just an area that I like to sit
84. You score more than 95 on the Epidemiology final - no such exam
85. You own more than one white coat - no, only one
86. You have debated between giving up sleep or eating in order to find more time to study - that is totally wacko!
87. You started studying for boards more than 2 months in advance - ermm
88. You have never received a personal invitation to discuss your grades with the dean - thank god
89. A tie is the only addition necessary to what you normally wear when you go to see patients - hey it's not the norm for girls to wear ties
90. You wear scrubs to tests - I wish I own one, it would be cool
91. You have made plans to study on a beach during vacation - seriously that is freaky
92. You actually did - did I mention freaky?
93. You have a designated seat in lecture - guilty as charged
94. You have ever asked someone to move from "your seat" - not so bad lah me
95. You sleep less than 4 hrs a night - that is insane, I'll die first
96. You think that is plenty - last I checked I was still alive
97. You have thought about cutting back - you still don't get the point??
98. You study more than 35 hrs outsid of class - nope!
99. You think you are a slackard - YES! I'm too lazy for my own good
100. You think everyone answers yes to most of these questions - definitely, more so if they are my fellow sufferers

PS: Btw, this list is not by me, I got it from some blog and just added some humourous answers. lol. So yeah, feel free to copy and paste it if you want. =)

Bad Day

It has been an absolutely horrible day. For many reasons.

There was the person who was rude to me altho I felt I was right and didn't deserve it.

There was the person who thought I wasn't right although the stuff was rightfully mine to begin with.

There was the person who tried to make fun of me and I had to shrug it off smillingly - coz there was no way to get off without being labelled touchy.

There was the person who bluntly told me he didn't appreciate what I had done for him althought the event took so much effort to plan.

There was the rain that started just after class and I didn't have an unbrella with me.

There was the rain that got so much heavier after I decided to wait a little while to see if it would abate.

There was the careless stupid fall that caused me to hurt myself in the right ribcage - I've a rather high threshold of pain and I hvta say, this is painful.

There was me, who just couldn't stop myself from pouring out streamless complaints to my friend.

And there is just so much more, feelings best left unsaid.

Sometimes, I am just human - I need that pat on the back telling me, yes it will be okay.

I think I shall go listen to Daniel Powter's Bad Day. Maybe it will make me feel a lil better.

This Is For You

I've been putting this post off - coz maybe in a way I wanna put off the pain that I'm sure would come rushing to overwhelm me once I start reminizing.

This post is in loving memory of you.

News of your death came to me in the form of a sms at an odd hour, and many many days after the real event. Coz none saw fit to tell me the news when it happened. I wonder why.

It was a sudden shock to me, coz the latest news I had of you was that you were just waiting for the operation so that you can get better to come back and teach. No one told me what the operation was for, so I assumed it was just a minor one. Something that would not get you down.

You seemed perfectly healthy to me the last time I saw you. Little did I know it would be the last chance I'd ever lay eyes on you. If I'd known, I'd have appreciate that little time left a little more.

I have known you since I was just a little kid of nine. You might not be a family member, but to me, you seemed more real to me than my actual grandfather was to me. You were not just a teacher, you were a wise friend that was willing to listen to the rants of a troubled teenage girl.

You not only gave me a listening ear, you also gave me sound advice. Advice that might sound weird then, but thinking back now, made a lot of sense. You were also a great storyteller, often entralling me with stories of your past encounters. Till today, I remember them well and wonder how much of those were true. haha. How I miss those happy innocent times.

If not for you, I might not be where I am today. I might have become a rather lousy student, a rebel without a reason. *think of those good-for-nothing kids that end up in jail becoz of some small crime* I wouldn't be able to do medicine today. But I can stand proudly here now, because you were there.

I told you most of my thoughts - how I would never like a guy (hey it was just one of those youngish misnomers), my theories on death and the universe, how unjustly I felt that my parents were treating me (ravages of puberty I reckoned) etc - it was really almost everything. Truth to be told, I opened up to you more than I could ever do to my own parents.

Do you remember I asked you once a long time ago to come back from the dead (if there was such an existence of coz) and tell me how it's like there? So that I won't be afraid of the unknown anymore. But you never came. Did you forget our promise or is there no such thing as life after death? I wish you would appear in any form to tell me you are well and happy now...

Now, the tears don't come anymore (not like those that came when I first heard of the news) coz in a way I've already gotten used to life without you. I saw lesser and lesser of you once I went to college. And even less so when I went to KL to study. But somewhere in the depths of my heart - although how naive a thought that could be - I always thought that you will be there for me if I might suddenly need you to listen again.

But you are gone now, to a better place where you will never be sad again. But I feel cheated coz I did not know of this impending event. I feel sad that I wasn't in time to tell you about the new special someone in my life. So at least you will know that you were right after all. I wish you knew how many things I'd like to tell you now about my current life, if I was allowed some private alone time with you. A priviledge I no longer possess.

Anyhow, I think you have led a fulfilling happy life and I'm glad. Although there might be some sad spots in your life, you were able to overcome them with determination and courage. Something that I will take to heart.

Rest in peace, Mr Chin. *soft sigh* I loved you and thank you for everything. =)

Turning The Big Two-O

Yup, finally time to reveal my long-awaited bday post! I can't believe this! I'm no longer a pimply-faced teenager and officially a kick-ass-must-be-responsible-adult! 20 20 20. Woo!

[Be prepared, I've a feeling this is gonna be one long-ass post. haha.]

Anyway, my bday celebrations actually started one hour earlier than the official chime of midnight of September 14th. And we're just getting back from the basketball match between sem1 and us.

And I was walking back to the lobby from the carpark when I got the surprise of my life! All of my frenz were so sweet to surprise me with a bday cake and bday songs - in the lobby no less!! omigosh. I really didn't expect ppl to surprise me in the lobby. Imagine how sweaty they got waiting for me there.

Surprising me with a birthday cake!

I really appreciate that, peeps. =D And boy, you guys are creative when it comes to surprises. lol. After that we went to Kee's house where they distribute the bday cake (choc banana if I'm not mistaken) and took photos etc. Some Ps2-ed, some talk crapped, you know the drill lah.. haha. Thanks for the surprise ya, guys! I enjoyed it very much. teehee >.<

Right, in case you're bored out of your mind, let me show you one of my prezzies from my girlfriends first okie. (btw pls notice if my photoshopping skills have become better?)

ooolala, what could be inside?

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Voila! A lovely necklace but that's not all...

It has my name on it!!

erm I photoshopped that part in (so you can have a brief idea) coz my phone's camera macromode ain't too good.

And there is a "friends forever" etched behind. Aww. I'll really treasure this. =) I've never had jewellery with my name before or even a friendship necklace. Thanks, Puifun, Suewen, Liyann and Valene!! Hontoni love it~!

And check this out... a flower hairpin that Li Yann gave me coz she went pasar malam the night before.

Isn't it pretty? Orchids are lovely...

Okay, not so bored ade right? Time to continue with the story then. hehe. On the real day of my bday, I had PBL and classes. =( haha no lah, anyway we had already decided to go out after my bf's volleyball's match.

Well, PBL was kinda funny coz they kept trying to use my bday as an excuse to take a photo with the lengchai fasci. shhh lol.

Anyway, it was quite late by the time we reached Midvalley. And so to Chili's we went to have a sumptous feast. We ordered the bottomless drinks and bottomless chips. Yummy. And the Fish and Chips totally kicks ass!

Come come, salivate at these pics.

This is the best that I've ever had, seriously. The meat inside is just so crispy and when you bite, the juice just fills your mouth with its taste. And the chips are just the right texture and right amout of saltiness. Hontoni delicious!

Next up is dessert... *licks lips*

It does live up to its name. It really is an orgasmic delight!! An enormous slice of cake topped with ice cream, chocolate sauce, caramel and don't forget the oreos pieces at the bottom. Doesn't that description make you hungry now? haha. My absolute fav dessert from now on! =)

After that really satisfying meal, we went to watch the musical-cum-movie called Hairspray.

The poster for the movie. Isn't it colourful?

The singing was beautiful. You know how much I like musicals. But then the one thing abt this movie is that it's too much of a musical than a movie. I think there was only an interval of 2-3 mins between each song. That was how much singing it was composed of. It wasn't that the songs weren't nice, they were just too beautifully forgettable. haha..

Anyhow, gotta say the dancing and plot is not bad. I tot it was really hilarious. Talking abt discrimination of ppl who are different. Tell you what, peeps who like a taste of the different shld check this movie out.

So after the movie which ended rather late, it was time to go home. But my bday post can't end without me showing you guys the prezzie I got from my dear dear. =)

Tada~!

This was how he presented it to me. Don't you guys think it's prettily done?

So nice of him to paste a lovely bday card on top of the box.

Do you wanna know what's inside? *wondering*

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Voila! A matching pair of earrings and necklace that he chose himself.

The earrings are heart-shaped while the necklace's pendant is a butterfly.

ooo so shimmery. I love it! *hearts*

And so that was the story of how I spent my twentieth birthday. Had a really great time! Thanks to my all my frenz and especially my dear dear. ^v^

Cheering For Cheerleading

yes you noticed the humorous irony in this post's title, right? :P

Anyway, for my readers who weren't there during the cheerleading competition last week, well you are in luck! I've found these videos in YouTube and have put them up here so you can watch for yourself!

[I didn't put up all the teams lah coz dunno why the whole page keeps lagging when I did that.] Ok enjoy~

Pharm A -Elektra

They were pretty good. I think they deserved some sort of placing too. I think most of them were part of the previous team of champions. Lurve their silver and purple uniforms!

Pharm B - Spartans

They were superb. I think they deserved the first place imho. They got 3rd place btw. The opening part is chun!! You'll get to see what I meant abt the human circles thingy I mentioned in a past post.

M106 - Venus

Yay! my batch's performance was superb and we got second place by just a tiny 0.1 mark difference. And we lost 5 marks coz we're over the time limit by a mere 30 seconds! Sucha pity don't you think?

Anyway, from the video, my batch might not be the most synchronized of all but you can't help but notice that there's a FUN vibe in our cheerleading! You feel lighthearted by watching their performance! Btw pls do notice the props especially the banners coz Kee and Keeping made them and I helped! hehe. >.<

M106 peeps always have fun no matter what! Cool~!

Sem 5 - Falcons

This year's champions! Pretty refreshing routine. And quite synchronized too. Lurve the part where they used chairs! So cute the poses on the chairs!