Sometimes I absolutely HATE myself.
There's this character flaw in me that I can't cant seemed to change a tiny bit. Even tho I'm rather aware of it.
You see, I have this terrible tendency to blurt things out without thinking. Stupid stupid stupid! *slaps self* Altho most of those things I say are true, but the tone which I used to say it, it's just not good! Why do I always sound sarcastic when I don't mean it...
My brain just can't seem to process speech abt whether it's approriate to say it onot at that certain time, certain place with the certain ppl around you. Why why why? I really dunno.
I'm really getting sick of this. Sick of myself.
Ppl always misunderstood me, they always think that I'm being sarcastic when sometimes what I wanna do is no more than state the truth. That's all. No hidden meaning behind my words.
And who is to blame? Myself. I should say things appropriately. I should convey whatever meaning I want correctly. And not get too caught up in the situation and say wrong silly things.
Why am I emo-ing at a time like this? I'm having respi exam tmr too (and it's a bleak situation there too! sigh).
Coz I just did that stupid silly mistake again just now. Yes, again.
When will I ever change?
It's true, character is hard to change. I'm so sick of myself now. *shyt*
PS: Pls don't be surprised if I talk lesser in the near future ya. Since I can't talk appropriately, might as well cut down on speech. I'm so afraid of making others unhappy just becoz I said the wrong things.