It Is Time

Omg omg. Results will be out in less than 30 mins or so. And I'm still blogging at home.

Aiyoh, just started packing up and cleaning stuff a few days. Not my fav job in the world I tell you. So I only did a little everyday. hah.

Watched Wanted yesterday with the bf. Yup, that was probably our last date in a long long time. *sobs* Lurve the Chicken Katsudon in Sushi Zanmai. thanks for the meal, dear! =)

Sorry. everything is jumbled up. Coz I can feel the adrenaline slowly being released into my blood again. I'll update more later. when I can think more clearly.

Time to get ready.

Results, here I come!

Please, let them be good news! Don't think I can stand more studying... I hope all of my friends get thru too!

*cross fingers and toes too*

Don't Mix It

Apparently, Vodka and Tequila don't go too well together. Especially on a quite empty stomach. My Area Postrema (read: vomitting centre) was pretty effective and said no-no twice. arrgh.

But it was certainly an experience. Will know what to expect next time lol.

PS: Hey, Tzen, tmr you'll be flying off to Melbourne for 2 weeks before continuing on to Singapore to do your research. Here, I sincerely wish you all the best and take care. May we meet again in the near future! =)

Update Update

Apologies for the miserable lack of updates although it's after the exam. As I supposedly should be free and dandy.

(Un)fortunately, I got hooked to the Sims 2 that I bought a few days ago. I think I've already spent at least 24 hours on it ade! haha. Yes I'd played it long ago when it was still hot but then it went and rosak itself and apparently I haven't got off my addiction till now!

Anyway, apart from playing God with my little Sims *wahaha* what have I been up to?

Let's see. Point form it shall be. Sorry it won't be in chronological order coz my brain is a bit buzzed right now.

• Viva results were out on monday. Went to check for my frens too. None of us got.. so I dunno whether that's a good thing or not... *let's keep our fingers crossed* Results will be out this friday! omg I really wanna pass! So I can use this holiday wisely! Well I say that for now, but I probably would just be bumming off. haha.

• Went shopping with Liyann & Puifun at 1U on monday after helping them check the viva results. Finally bought a pair of slippers (my old pair really no hope ade) and a pair of pants! I likey~ Ooo thanks to the dear bf who was willing to send & fetch me all the way there! As he says, it's the last time I'll probably get to shop with them in a long long time. =(

• Anyway, girls, I really had fun. Food at Delicious was really delicious! lol. The macarpone smtg smtg spaghetti (sorry forgot the whole name ade coz too long!) was definitely a winner. Kept me craving for more! hehe. Applicious Pie and the wedges were not too bad too! =D

• We went to watch Hancock on monday night. Yes after my shopping trip I was dead tired but still hvta go. Coz everyone else is going! hoho. If you ask me, the movie was okay, had its funny moments but somehow it just lacked that lusture in its plot. Didn't have that "wow" moment. Sucha pity coz Will Smith & Charlize Theron were in it and they played their roles well. I guess we are too used to all those loud action super hero movies and here comes one more about love. hah.

I guess that's for now. Haven't been doing much leh. Sorry lah, we are boring people who prefer to stay at home and play games. haha no-lah, just that these few days dunno want to do what also. Besides, the more we go out, the more money we will spend right! Must save money coz going overseas soon lo. =/

*le sigh*

Left only 3 more days before I go back to Penang. Not that I'm not thrilled about going home after sucha long time being away... but I think I'm going to miss my frens and especially the bf dreadfully. Don't remind me.

*pushes the thought aside - the emo post shall continued to be procastinated on*

Later will be going out. To where I'll not say hoho. For now, shall go rest me head. Stupid headache.

Life Is Good

Okay, today I have finally forced myself to take a really satisfying nap without any alarms set to wake me up lest I oversleep or anything. Boy it felt good!

And I wonder why I don't do naps on a more regular basis. oh wait, that is because normally I haven't been sleep deprived for weeks!

Can't wait for the dark circles to slowly clear up then. (yes I have very dark circles to prove my sleep deprivation. *sigh* the sacrifices medical students sometimes make..)

Anyway, after that some of us went to have dinner at Chop & Steak, which is this nice dinner place serving yummy western food at reasonable prices. And their fruit juices are to die for! Seriously, at rm2.50, it is one big glass of very thick natural fresh fruit juice! Worth-it right? *hearts*

After a satisfying dinner, came back, cleaned my room, washed and changed the bedsheets, took a bath and here I am online. Wow, everything just feels.. good.

For me, one of the pleasures in life is to take a nice warm bath and then sleep in a clean nice-smelling bed. You can think that's weird or whatever. But for me, that is really very calming and makes me feel all relaxed..

It's funny, I was supposed to blog about the exam in this post.. but just don't feel like ranting now. Maybe the next one then.

For now, life is good. =)

And... I Am Back!

After an impromptu abrupt hiatus of more than one week...

What lah! why so garang.

I had this very important exam called End-of-Semester 5 ma...

Anyway, craps aside, I just soooo glad that IT IS OVER!!

As usual, everything still feels pretty surreal. Not so much of euphoric joy or mad partying on the horizon though. Instead, everything is held on to with a tinge of sadness. Because everyone will be leaving each other soon. Very soon.

The first of many "lasts" started a few months back.

Last CSU, last PBL, last lecture and after this last exam (well I hope it is!!), there will be last outings with friends.. and many more other "lasts"...

I feel sad writing this.. but I guess this is the way of life. With every new acquaintance made, there will always be a separation.

It is inevitable. Nothing can be done.. and we can only hope that our paths will cross again in the future.

Okla, duwan to ruin my friends' elatic post exam mood already. Will only blog more (abt the exam and other miscellanous stuff) in later posts.

For now, ciao first.

PS: For those who wants to read something funny, why not try this. hehe...

Paying The Price

I think I'll never ever change my procastinating habits. I've tried to be better and there was slight improvement during the previous few in-course-systems.

But there I go. I went slack for this coming big one. EOS 5.

I am dead.

*inserts emoticon of dead skeleton buried under notes*

I've been trying very hard these few days. Going into turbo mode. But it still ain't fast enough. I don't think I can finish one round for all the systems. And I can't remember much of what I studied earlier.

Do you think it would be okay if I skip one system??

*inserts super guilty and panicky face*

Must tell own self to relax and don't panic. Hyperventilating won't help anything...

I can do this. I must trust my brain...

PS: Health Issues' exams was CRAP. It was pretty hard and I can't believe a lecturer so nonchantly said it was the easiest exam he had ever seen. My ass. I shouldn't had spend so much time studying for that. It was so boring too. bah!

Helpless

I hate falling asleep while reading my notes.. and waking up 2 hours later with an almost compressed nerve (Ahh!!) and neck in an awkward position.

Only god knows how long I have been doing this (luckily not every night though).

Health Issues system is a pain in the ass. Many of us have just started reading it not long ago (me not excluded hehe) and it's pretty boring to try to remember stuff like what steps to do when there's an epidemic, what are the core values of a doctor, how to promote health etc.

Aikz memorizing and really practicing it are two total different things, you know.

Anyway, exam is tomorrow. And I can't wait to faster finish reading the notes.. coz they are killing me.

And I am starting to regret wasting the first two weeks of the self-proclaimed study break. I don't think I can finish reading one round for all the systems. Maybe I should just give up. (learned helplessness ma...)

Okay. fine. I'm gonna get my ass to the library later.

PS: Check out this funny post. Picture parodies of The Last Supper. Only in the name of amusement and fun - not meant to offend. Enjoy! Gave me a much-needed chuckle. hehe..

No I Am Not

I find it ironic that you came to us for advice.

Ironic because we can't handle our own similar problems as well. So what right do we have to dish out advice to you?

If there is any useful advice available, I would like to be the first to know.

In my opinion, any advice given to others but not practiced by oneself is just that - crap.

Coz as of now...altho it might not look like it, but I still struggle to accept the fact in its whole totality.

I might look like I'm strong, able to readily tackle any stray emotions that come my way.

But I'm not.

But I hope to have the strength to face it one day.

A Storm Within A Storm

I'm still FAR from accomplishing what I shld have done by now in my revision schedule. I am so dead!!!

Oh whatever, just gotta do my best. Pray they will ask basic Qs and not detailed ones. Pray my brain will serve me well during those few days of exams. Coz now moi's brain can't remember what moi studied a few days back. AHHH!

What's the use of studying if I can't remember what I studied? =(

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No airing of dirty linen in public channels allowed. yes mum said tat. But she never said anything abt doing it in a vague nondescript way though! Besides it's not even my linen, figuratively.

Anyway, there was an emotional outburst. Like many incidents that happened prior to this. (don't worry, it wasn't me)

People's emotions were running wild like an elephant on a rampage. Tension. Negligence. Depression. Indignance. at being treated as such. A vicious cycle indeed.

Hey, have you ever wondered - what if it's all in the mind?

(Don't worry if you don't understand. you're not supposed to. I'm just randomly stringing words together for effect. hah.)

All That Glitters Is Not... Petrol?

Fellow Malaysians, you must have heard abt the recent petrol hike from the previous price of RM1.92/litre to the sudden leap to RM2.70/litre yesterday.

If not, you must have been living under a shell.

Or maybe you don't own a car.

Let's also not go into why the government decided that it was A-OK to suddenly spring this on us or what's wrong with subsidizing us a while more when our very own Petronas is making a huge ton of profit from oil. Coz this has probably been discussed to death in other blogs and they are more competent/convincing in doing so than me.

Anyway.

I foresee more increases in prices in just about everything! Which is scary. *sigh* Hvta save more money nowadays, cannot simply indulge every food whim, must buy the cheapest stuff, go out less also. >.<

Besides being frugal in your daily lifestyle, what else can you do to save your petrol and make it last to the very last drop? Here's a guide to the drivers out there. Do check it out!

Or if you want a more humourous positive outlook on how the fuel price increase will help Malaysia. Read this!

Sigh.. feel like there are many things going wrong with the world nowadays. What with the string of natural disasters, the ppl suffering, laughable acts by our politicians, inflation...

Maybe Armageddon is not such a far-fetched theory after all.

The Deafening Silence

I hate feeling like this sometimes.

It might be silent during the middle of the night. But the silence is deafening.

Many things run through my mind at these sort of hours.

Things I normally push aside to make way for "daily functioning", things I don't like to think about, things that make me all weepy inside, memories that I wished were gone, imaginations that I hoped wouldn't come true but they will - in some way or other. Coz they are inevitable.

I hate my brain sometimes.

Grateful

I'm feeling rather sleepy now so I think I shall retire to my comfy bed soon. (althou I shld be burning more midnight oil actually but sigh, my eyelids are not cooperating as usual)

Anyway, just tot I'll pen a few ramblings before bed.

Here's an announcement for those who are interested:- The Partner Medical School (PMS) I got matched to is University of Western Australia!

It's my second choice so I guess I'm pretty cool with it. Actually, to tell the truth, I don't really mind which PMS I get as long as it's in the region of Australia or New Zealand. It's just because of financial constraints that's why I put Uni of Adelaide as my first choice.

But then, as fate wud have it, I got the place I somehow seemed more inclined to. Don't ask me why. Maybe it's because it's the nearest PMS to Malaysia. haha guess I'm going to miss Malaysia when I'm abroad! that's why "sei charn" also want to be in the same time zone as Malaysia. (yup I'm still going to have the same bed time and no jet lag wuahaha!)

Jokes aside, I'm really grateful. really.

I was readying myself for far worse results so imagine the emotions that run thru me when I flipped the letter up to unveil the words of "Uni of Western Australia" staring at me. in bold.

To tell you the truth, I was more like shocked. Became emotionally numb for quite a while. Didn't know what feelings to express.

It was also largely due to the fact that I couldn't believe my good luck. I'm rarely lucky in these sort of things.

And I'm glad that most of my close friends are happy with their Matching Results too.

Congrats to:

• Kee Ping who got Uni of Auckland (1st choice) - you deserved it! Must be the good karma points for always being such a selfless person! =)

• Li Shan who also got Uni of Auckland (3rd/4th choice) - well didn't see you yet so not tat sure what you think abt it but heard you're ok with it, which is good! And so nice, you get to go with another good fren! *envy*

• Eugene who got Uni of Tasmania (2nd choice) - hehe we are in the same country!

• Thuan Tzen who got Uni of Melbourne (1st choice) - you've always wanted to go there so it's great tat you finally got what you wanted! Do some great research and become the first Malaysian Noble Prize Winner for curing cancer okay. lol.

• Beh who got Uni of Otago (1st choice) - wah why so many ppl go New Zealand wan? *pouts*

However, not everybody were happy with their results. Which was to be expected in a situation like this. Heard there were people who got their 6th or 7th choice. Dunno if there is anyone who got a choice further down than that.

I do not know how to write this part without sounding like some smug-stupidly-grinning-prat but... I really do feel sorry for you guys. But I guess in this case, you can't do much but appeal and continue to hope. But remember, you can be sad for a few days.. but don't forget the big picture! EOS 5 is coming soon so you need to get your wits back and continue the fight!

We wanted to help those in need. That's why we chose this difficult winding road called Medicine.

In the end, I guess it doesn't matter where we learn how to do that, as long as we do. And don't forget to care.

I bade everyone good night and sweet dreams...

Hope - The Thing That Keeps Shining

Yesterday, my mood was greatly improved when the aircon-man abruptly announced his arrival and fixed the leaking aircon. Which had been leaking like nobody's business for the past one week.

Just imagine many buckets below ready to catch the leaking drops trickles! And it leaks at random locations at random times. Mean I hvta keep supervising it to make sure to shift the buckets when they decided that it was fun to shift their dripping location. arggh.

Anyway, thought that finally everything was settled and that I can study in peace. Pleased to announce that today - for once - I managed to do some effective studying in the library. thank god for the separate area where there is less of the drilling and sawing noise. I was gonna go mad a few days back. *pulls hair* With all the renovation going on, the library is one of the worst places to study nowadays.

I guess we just hvta leave the same way we came in.

I rmb those sem 1 days where we're cloaked in semi-darkness when walking around uni. Because of the massive construction. think of the dust! the noise!

And now when we're in sem 5, yet again, we are attacked by that same similar terrible combination of dust + immense noise. It's an occupational hazard to be a medical student these days. *sigh*

Oh wait, I have digressed.

Today you have the pleasure of reading this post due to a sudden news that I've just received this afternoon.

Almost gave me an MI (that's myocardical infarction aka "heart attack" for those non-medic types out there)!

Apparently, without any due warning, the PMS Matching results will be given out tmr at 2.30pm outside AAD!

*omgwtfbbq*

I am NOT prepared at all. Be it mentally, physically, spritually whatever. Was told that it would be announced maybe two weeks later? And now they suddenly spring this on us? OMG.

My fragile heart cannot take this.. *faints*

Dramatics aside, I guess I can't do anything but just hope for the best. I know it's impossible to make everyone happy (especially when they don't take your happiness into account! heck they don't care at all - why else wud our study break be so damn short?!) so I can only hope that all my friends and I get the most suitable choice. (note that I said suitable choice, not first/best choice)

I believe that wherever I get, it's a sign that I am supposed to be there in the near future. Let's assign it to fate then. (hope that tmr at this time I can still be as optimistic)

Besides - in the grand scheme of life - does it matter where we start to learn how to help those in need?

It doesn't.

(wait that was a rhetorical question!)

Tonight - I rest in HOPE.

Oversensitive

If you have to be a drug, what would you be and why?

"I would like to be an anti-histamine - so I wouldn't be oversensitive anymore."

That was the answer I got from a fellow batchmate while reading thru the questionnaires for convo mag.

Now, thinking back, I can't help but agree with the statement myself. This post would be the reply to yesterday's sudden emo post abt friendship. I won't go into the details (mum says one shld never air one's dirty linen in public) but there are definitely many lessons and thoughts to muse abt from the incident...

For me, it's really hard to stop the floodgates of emotions from bursting out once it overwhelms me. It's like all my sense and logic just suddenly took a nosedive out of my window of conscious thought or something.

I had many experiences in my past. Not all were bad, but definitely not all were sweet. I thought I'd forgotten abt them, maybe I had wiped the state clean with my ability of selective short-term-memory-loss.

But apparently not.

Yesterday, it was like my Pandora's box of emotions about friendship was suddenly released without warning. No, the memories haven't disappeared. They were just lying low in some deep dark corner of my heart, ready to unleash their terror over me anytime anyday now.

I was terrified.

I thought I had curbed them. That they were gone. Never to hold their possessive grip over me anymore. But yesterday they reared their ugly little heads and showed me they had been just bating their time all the while long.

I am disappointed with myself.

Why did I let my emotions and past experiences took hold of me? I thought I'd changed much for the better... but there were lil relapses now and then. But yesterday's one was major. Huge.

I guess the human brain never really forgets all the negative stuff.

In the end, I am just human. Old habits die hard. But I will continue to strive and resolve to battle all those ugly lil creatures in my pandora's box.

Anyway, to you-know-who, thanks for taking the effort and time to talk to me about the incident. I really appreciate it. It shows that you all treasure this friendship as much as I do.

For once, maybe my naive thought about the meaning of friendship might not be so naive after all. =)

We all learn lessons as we go along. That is how we grow, isn't it? I hope to be a better person at the end of this long journey called Life.

Cliched as it may be, let's drink a toast to "friendship forever"!

Again. And. Again.

They say true friendship is not measured by the length of the friendship - rather, more by the intimacy and feelings shared together.

So far, Life has been keen on proving me how wrong this statement is.

Sometimes, I wish I would stop naively wishing for it to be true.

I think I had enough.

No more.

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UPDATE: Maybe it isn't as bad it seems. Will blog about it later. Anyway, let there be known.. there is hope!

Feeling Better

Hell yeah, this is the 3rd day of the self-proclaimed holiday and I'm feeling much better after some much needed rest!

Haven't been feeling well since yesterday morning - tummy was feeling bloated plus some dull ache. Palpated myself and felt guarding all over - omg generalized peritonitis!! lol. I shall try not to overeat again. (actually it wasn't my fault but I shall not dwell on it already)

Anyway, went to play basketball with the guys this morning. Wow it was certainly a good workout that my old bones needed! Sweating haven't been so much fun! haha.. My technique wasn't as bad as I tot, althou super long didn't play ade.. Now only realized how much I missed it!

There are some posts up my sleeve - pity them, have been hiding in drafts for sucha long time. I shall try to dig them up these few days alright.

Hmm my tummy is grumbling now. I want lunch!!

Okay ciao~

PS: Must start studying soon... althou the spirit and the body are both unwilling.. but must must start studying!!

PPS: How come nobody seems to be reading my blog wan? I guess it must be because of the few busy weeks I rarely update that has already chased all my readers away.. *sigh*

Post NS

My eyelids seemed to be involuntarily dropping down (*gasp* ptosis!) due to recent partial sleep deprivation but I am still adamant in my goal to blog abt recent events before taking the forty winks I rightly deserve.

Well, as the normal tradition, I shall again blog abt the exam before going on to the festivities, alright?

Looking back at this headache-giving-anxiety-filled Nervous system, I must say, we certainly have come far. The 2.5 years will be up soon. I can't help but stiffle a snuffle when I think abt it. T_T (wait don't you think "sniffle a snuffle" sounds farny? It's like a tongue twister or smtg haha)

Jokes aside, in my opinion, the Nervous system is certainly rather aptly named.. coz it turns all of us into nervous worrisome creatures trying our utmost best to read, understand and memorize all the important points!

*huge sigh*

Anyway, I must say... thank god that the exam wasn't as hard as I imagine it would be. I know the examiners could have made it so much harder that most of us would have broke down in tears at the exam hall itself.

However, it definitely wasn't easy. I shall be satisfied as labelling it as "do-able" for the most part. And to me, it certainly is a sigh of relief. Granted, a lot of pbl stuff came out. But that was to be expected. We were already warned beforehand. I did try my best to do my pbls diligently (actually I try to do tat most of the time unlike some people) but somehow didn't manage to cover everything I should. That's why couldn't really answer some of the Qs.. so just wrote some common sense lo. haha.

*ok I give up to nature - I shall go take my nap and continue later okay toodles*

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I'm back! Apparently my nap lasted til the next day lol. No-lah, just didn't feel like blogging last night after the heavy meal. So yeah, I shall continue with my ramblings now.

I think I shall go straight to the festivities, shall we? Nobody really wants to listen to me talk abt how difficult was the exam etc. It's old stale news~

Anyway, after the exam, we went to Sunway for a nice dinner plus movie. And it was also to celebrate LiYann's 21st birthday slightly earlier! ^v^ Her birthday is on monday. Woots! Big girl ade lo.. haha.

Dinner was at Manhattan Fish Market. To be honest, normally I ain't really keen on seafood, but the seafood platter is just plain delicious!!! *drools*

I ate until I was so full. omg. Certainly worth-it. And the chocolate cheese cake bought by Valene is so yummy!! The taste was so rich that I couldn't finish my slice of cake. (and normally you know I have a high threshold for sweet stuff haha) And the choc chips on it! oooh!

Adding in last nite's reluctant heavy dinner, I think I really need to go for some exercise. aikz. Basketball/swimming/gym/jogging, anyone? hmm..

Anyway, after the really filling dinner, we went to watch The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. I must say, the 2 and a half hours movie was worth every buck of the RM12 I forked out!!

*there may be spoilers I dunno - read at ur own risk*

The scenery was gorgeous, actors/actresses quite easy on the eyes, funny one-liners that really made me laugh, and the story was relatively loyal to the story book (except for a few alterations but then I've seen worse)!

Of coz, the main alteration that had me majorly shaking my head was the part where Susan and Prince Caspian kiss!! How can that happen? There never was so much as a hint of it in the book.. and it was kinda weird if you ask me. Unless Prince Caspian was so desperate that he would go for any lady near his age.. which happened to be Susan. go figure~

But on the overall, I lurve the movie! It has been so long that I've watched a fantasy-themed movie that was capable of pulling me into that dreamy-escapist sort of atmosphere... Go watch it! huhu.

And that was how the festivities ended. I'm so glad the exam is over. The few hours post-exam are so precious because it's the only time where one feels entitled to some proper chilling out and rest. Sigh poor medical students.

And now comes the time to do revision for the scary EOS5!! But I don't feel up to it. Let's procastinate abit, shall we? hehe...

Am going for another nap. Suddenly my tummy don't feel that good. Maybe indigestion from all that food. sigh.. ok tata!

Last Minute Spurt

As usual, blogging has been pushed way down my list of priorities since I've started sem5 (ahem 3rd year medical student - make way make way!) so when I do blog, I am always supposed to be doing smtg else.

Today is no different.

My CNS exam is this coming friday. Yes, less than 48 hours to mug!! *yikes*

I know you guys will say "aiya she always say that wan" but it is true! I still have tonnes of notes to finish (omg still in first round!) so yeah I am basically dead.

(I think I need the adrenaline rush/stress to push me to study - what do you think?)

Let's hope the exam and/or lecturers are kind to us too this time around.

CNS's notes are damn scary, most of them take damn long to read - well at least I take a very LONG time to read even one note. Aihs. So much content in one note!

Okay, I better go save my ass by publishing this filler post and continue studying!

Good luck, everyone! This is the last crazy-ass ICA! go go~

Two Days Which Seemed So Long

Yet again, when I shld be doing my last pbl for cns (thk god!), I am procastinating here. But hey, I really don't have any mood to do my pbl lah.. Have been (not-so) diligently doing it the past few weeks.. so cut me some slack!

Anyway, my last hospital visit was the day before yesterday. It was almost uneventful until the last part where the doctor was teaching for quite a long time then I felt weird again!! It wasn't as bad as last time where I couldn't stand... but anyhow, I felt this weird bulge in my throat (smtg like nausea) irritating me several times.. till I decided I didn't want to take any chances and asked permission to sit.

I hope this doesn't happen everytime I am in a hospital! Or that would probably signal the end of my carreer aspirations... :O I haven't been working hard for so long now for nothing! Let's hope it's just heat intolerance or smtg like tat... wait, tat sounds like hyperthroidism. uh oh~

Right.

*feels guilty for not doing pbl properly and disappears for an hour or so*

*appears later after finishing at least 1 learning issue properly*

Well, I'd managed to read and make notes abt the physiology of speech properly. So don't feel so guilty now haha so can continue blogging.

Okay, what's next?

Oh ya, my mock osce yesterday. Was pretty stressed up about it even tho I know it's just mock!

Anyway this is what came out for physical examination for my group.

1st PE: check for hydration status, presence of abdominal guarding and examine liver for signs of hepatitis.

Wahlau eh! Why so vague wan the Qs!! The previous group got pretty straightforward Qs. Just do superficial palpation of abdomen or movements of hip joint. Easy kan?? I was left debating there on what exactly should I do to check for all that.

Luckily I did the correct examinations I think. But apparently no need to percuss for liver span to check for hepatitis although almost everyone did it lol. A friend even more geng, can measure liver span without ruler (coz he didn't have one) and using just rough estimating! *rotfl*

2nd PE: Examine the model and do a pap smear.

Yikes! I wasn't the best at this model. So abit kelam kabut. Had trouble opening the metal thingy used to kiap cotton wool. Noob aren't I? Wasn't that hot either with handling the speculum plus inserting and removing it.. Oh well, guess I gotta practice more then!

The funniest thing was that I almost forgot to put on gloves. But luckily saw them in the nick of time. But a batchmate forgot and the dr said she'll fail anyone who did tat. Must always remember to put on gloves!!

BS was quite okay, did quite well - even tho the lecturer commented my face looked super nervous. But history taking wasn't that good. I was suddenly at a loss on what to ask. And I knew I was ok before this. Must be the nervousness building up inside me. *sigh*

Stand alone stations: One was quite easy, on fasting blood sugar. The other one was X-ray. Which totally pawned me! I didn't know we were supposed to look at both sides of the X-ray (apparently there was a normal and an abnormal one side) so I kept looking at the normal side so I couldn't find anything really abnormal abt it... (of coz lah, it was normal in the first place whut!) I'm definitely gonna fail that station. aikz.

Well that was abt it. At least I managed to pass most of the stations - which to me is an achievement in the first place. I remembeing very well failing my sem 3 mock osce badly too lol. And it wasn't from a lack of practice either. Nervousness is the enemy of students everywhere!!

Okla, that's abt it for today. Shld really continue doing my pbl. Only doing 1 learning issue just won't do.

till the next time we meet, bai~

Who Finishes Last?

I'm posting this up using the bf's celcom broadband portable modem thingy. I didn't know that he has this gadget or that it even works! [sry lah I quite noob] It's slow but at least it works! Hurray~

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I should be reading up on the relatively confusing topic of head injuries for my pbl tmr. But hey, when the inspiration to blog comes, grab it by the neck, I say. Especially when my entries are getting less and less scintillating by the week. aihs!

*wonders how many readers I still have left*

Anyway, my past week might have been normal or even boring to the casual observer. (ok maybe unlucky would be a better word – with reference to the previous post)

But who knows the happenings inside that relatively small but important thing called the brain?

(btw cns is a killer system – why must the human brain be so complicated??)

Many events to muse about. Many little seemingly unimportant facts brought to light. Who knows the intricacies of emotions? I pity those involved in this complicated saga. (sorry, no names will be mentioned for those who are kaypo)

In the end, it does seem like Karma is playing a cruel joke on her.

I guess you reap what you sow, right?

But why are other innocent people involved? Shouldn't there be any happy endings for the people who deserve it? My heart breaks… to see the good-hearted guy again taken for granted. Do nice guys always finish last?

I won't say more. Coz I can't do anything abt it anyway. Will just hope that goodness will prevail in the end…